N3mBers

Aorta (Kick Kick Punch)
September 21, 2009

If you saw my heart
you would be alarmed.
coursing with veins
coursing with disdain
coursing with lust
and infatuation

If you saw my heart
I would already be dead
because I wouldn’t dare
to let people like you see my heart
not my crowning jewel!
not my stringy heart
fuck you!

If you saw my heart
I would be afraid
what if my heart isn’t right
barely passes for a heart.
what if my heart is best likened
to that of a beast.
(sorry)

If you saw my heart you would cry,
poor pitiful thing that it is.

The Dual
September 22, 2009

I hate you.
I hate the way you make me
feel.

But I see you.
I mean I
really see you.

I see through and
I see past you
and then I see you.

And then I love you.
And then I hate myself.

I suppose we’re wrapped up
in each other.
Except, you would never agree to that.

And that’s your appeal.
That (I know)
and the way you make me
feel.